vent

first off, I have to say we are very lucky/blessed. Today we had a major flood in our area and because our townhouse is on a hill, we were unaffected. We can't get our van out of the parking lot, but we are fine.  Svend made it to work eventually this morning and it took some creative routes to get back home only to park down the street a ways and park. our road is a lake and all around us is a lake... but we are fine and dry and though we lost power for 6 hours, it's back on and we're good. our friend's have a flooded house. completely flooded...and no flood insurance. So we are extremely lucky.  I can't imagine. Well, I can...because we had a flood two years ago and it SUCKED!  But we were just renters...

So I should just leave it at that with grattitude that we are well, but I'm crying so I can't.

Today, tomorrow, and Saturday Svend has a conference. he gets special dinners where spouses are invited. We had a babysitter. To think I was worrying about what to wear since I'm prego, large and whatever... anyways, we can't get the van out and the roads immediately around us are bad so we can't take the kids to the babysitter even though the freeways to chicago are fine.   Sucks. SO I thought "okay. it's fine. We'll all just be home and whatever. no biggie." Then Svend decides he is still going. But since we can't fit everyone into his car and would need to go straight to the highway rather than through town to a sitter, I can't go.  BUT, he said he'll take the kids. They had no school today and won't tomorrow and I'm am DONE.  It really has been a good day and we've been out in weather, exploring and stuff...but over the last 2 hours, Tally has had an attitude with me that I am so sick of!  She does not deserve to go.  Why am I the one who is punished?!?!?!??! Sometimes being the mom really really REALLY sucks.  So the three older kids get to go to a special dinner at a fancy restaraunt and I "get" to stay home with just Brooky. Awesome. I told Svend I was just jealous and frustrated with the whole situation. He responded that he would take me Saturday. YEah... uh...BABY-FREAKING-SITTER?!?!??!

I know it's ridiculous. We have power and he can actually get out with his car where it's parked, etc.. and our home is dry and our stuff is fine and we are fine and we have food etc, but it still sucks. I know it's minimal and I'm being a baby. I'm just hormonal...which is why I locked myself in my room. alone. to write this post. rather than vent to humans.  sometimes being the mom is just plain hard.  someday I'll get a date and get to actually BE with my husband and join him instead of my kids getting to join him on special dates. I want a date with my husband too.  10 years next week. bluh. yeah, we'll celebrate big.  i'm sure. suck. suck. suck.

the end.


Svend took the kids and I was fine with it. It was fun helping the girls get dolled up and Bergen dressed nicely. Tally had me put on makeup. She was so excited. I was excited for her. I spent my night with Brooklyn which kind of stunk at first... but then she just wanted to laugh and play with me and it IS her birthday for goodness sakes!!! I love my family. I'm grateful I didn't vent like crazy to everyone else.  I just needed to cry.  This week has been hard on our nation and we, as a family are so blessed.  Our trials are NOTHING compared to what has been happening.  There was a bombing in Boston on Monday that killed 3 people and injured nearly 200 with loss of LIMBS!  Today so many are homeless due to floods, and in Texas last night there was an explosion that pretty much flattened a town.  About 10 first responders lost their lives.  My thoughts and prayers are with all those suffering right now. I have no right to complain about anything.