frustrating...

have a cousin (close one!) getting married in 2 weeks. Found cheap tickets that I could split with my parents...but never found out if Svend had a holiday off or not...and now the tickets are gone. Hate when things are so close and yet so far away. Just want to be with my family. For everyone to meet my baby who is growing way to fast. To see my cousin. To sit in the temple with my brothers. bluh.