My baby is one week today! And...we are still in the hospital! Am I disappointed that we didn't go home yesterday? Yes. However I'm grateful for the tender mercy of HOPE that we could have gone home. It helped us all re-evaluate and have a better attitude. Today her levels are down by 5 points again...so retest in a few hours...then if they are down by 2 points we'll leave with a billi blanket tonight! HOORAY!
Tender Mercy #2-- Hubby got the week and a half off! Now, once I get home, he'll have atleast a full week to dedicate JUST to studying for boards :) I am grateful and he is too.
Tender Mercy #3-- Baby Girl is so mature. Honestly. Yesterday the kids came up to the hospital and the Easter BUnny had come here (because he wanted to see the new baby). Anyways, kids each got some candy eggs and a puzzle. The nurses however gave the kids VERY large easter baskets and hid some eggs for them to find. Bugs got a race car in his...BabyGirl got a purse. She didn't say anything. Just thank you. But I was waiting for the moment when she'd wonder why she didn't get anything cool...
It came later that night. As I was driving back to the hosptial after a much needed shower, she asked softly from the back seat "mom, why didn't the easter bunny bring me a toy?" She did notice. But she didn't throw a fit right then and there. She was just grateful at the moment. I told her that the easter bunny did not bring Bugs a toy either. It was the hospital and it was probably because it was the only boy basket they had.... She nodded a brave "okay." Then, I asked her what kind of toy she would have asked for. She told me and all I said was "well, lets look around and see if we can find anything like that." She was grateful I listened and I was grateful how she handled it. I love her so much. She has had to grow up so fast. I nearly breaks my heart at how fast. I'm looking forward to a time when we have a career and the food stamps and medicaid stress are gone.
Tender Mercy #4
Last night I told hubby just to drop the kids off somewhere before coming to the hospital...they get so bored here and they end up sitting in timeout a lot :( Anyways, he said "no. they are part of this too." meaning, they need to see thier baby sister and understand how important she is in our lives--just as important as each one of them are. It doesn't matter how long they've been in our family. they are equally important. I was grateful for his attitude on this subject. Like I said, everyone's seemed to calm down about the timing of everything and I suppose that that is :
Tender Mercy #5. Just the peace that comes with remembering why we are here and that we have a mindful Father in Heaven.
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