hate crying myself to sleep. ugh. I wake up with horrible congestion and sore/dry throat. But once again..I'm hormonal and it's hard to feel so alone. only a few more days. on a good note, i woke up at 4am and got to text with my brother for a bit who was on 24 hour duty (marine). i also woke up to find my phone beeping b/c i got a new nephew!!! one more to come in march (this one on hubby's side) and then it's my turn. can't believe i'm nearly 18 weeks. i also can't wait to see my ob again. feeling so angry really sucks. this is what happens when i'm pregnant... things go really good --when everyone's getting along and there's no stress...but then when stress comes (like the fact that i didn't sell my car yesterday when i thought it was a done deal!) it just really throws me off. then the kids start whining or screaming or have to be held and i just want to deal with the previous stress so that makes me angry and more stressed... and then it results in me sending everyone to bed an hour early b/c i just can't take it anymore and it's best for everyone. this is especially hard when there's no hubby---for obvious reasons. i have done the medication thing but i'm not like this all the time and it's only once a week or so which i think is pretty darn normal for most preggers. it'll be better when hubby is home. just a few more days. my kids need a break from me. they need a second adult here. i need a second adult here. i don't know how single mom's do it and do it sanely. of course if i was truly single i wouldn't be pregnant--haha...and thus the hormonal crap would be obsolete (hopefully!)