how can I write a negative post when my "theme" is I never said it'd be easy, I only said it'd be worth it"?
Svend's car broke down. I have budgeted and budgeted and nothing could have prepared us for THIS. We are looking at $1200… conservatively.
I honestly don't know where this will come from. Svend was very upset. He was very angry and frustrated. the kids' behavior didn't help…and he took it out on them mostly. Times like these I have to remind myself what I must look like to him when I get so frustrated and angry. So, I can't be mad at him.
I did ask him if he was going to pray. he wasn't sure. I don't know if I've ever been unsure about something like that but he is very angry at God. He's stuck in Texas. he has a poorly paid job. He's got chigger bites again. Now… his car has to be repaired.
it could be worse. but how? I don't want to know!!!!!!
While he was with the tow truck driver tonight I bore my soul to the kids. I told them how when I tell them no on buying things it isn't because I don't want to buy them those things. I would LOVE to give them eVERYTHIGN. I say no because we just can't afford it. I hoped they would understand. I again assured them that things would be okay, just tight. I told them we needed to pray for the strength and ability to pay for the repair because while Heavenly Father allows trials to come and he won't take them away always, he can help us to bare them better. I was crying. The kids were listening (mostly b/c the two youngest were in bed) and I think we all understood each other. Then, we prayed. We prayed for Svend. we prayed for the car. we prayed for the strength and ability to pay. We thanked God for all our many blessings-because we have MANY to be thankful for.
We will be okay. It's not easy. It will be worth it, either in this life or the next. I just pray Svend can see that. I need his strength too.
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