keeping above the water...

i feel like this is our whole life! going over our bills and income and this SUCKS!!! I don't know how we got ourselves so far behind but it is hard. very very hard.

I wish I had something got sell…some big ticket item. You know, it's good to pay off debts but not if they leave you screwed. I would give anything for that van payment again… because that would mean we'd have a savings account…maybe.  I guess it all equals out. but it hurts.

it is hard to feed a family of 7 for 100-150 per week. I am not able to do it. not with other things that come up.  I'm pushing 150-250 per week on food and random expenses. I guess if we never went anywhere… like ANYWHERE…it'd be different.  But I do have 5 kids and we do like to go places… and we'd like to do a vacation some time you know.

my parents are having us watch their dog.  and they are paying us $360 by the end of it…that will fund our vacay! good because we have no other way to fund it and I really really really want to have the kids have something to look forward to and say they did on summer vacation!  we are just going to ft worth, but they've never been there and neither have I really, so it'll be fun! and of course…the hotel with a pool.

anyways, I check our budget over and over again…and we really far behind. I just don't know where else we can cut, unless we can refinance one of our loans, but I'm not sure if it's even possible…but that might give us some relief. ugh. ugh ugh. sometimes being an adult is impossible.


just a blurp into our lives right now.. and we still have 10 days til pay day…

				26-Jun				10-Jul
		MONTHLY		real	spent			real	spent
BUDGET		4600		2300				2300
tithing		500		250	250			250
electric		150						150
water		120						99
rent		1325		665	665			660
discover loan		232		236.12	237
acura		217		216.68	217.24
GIECO		95			0			95
BCBS		193		193	193
ACS		160		78	78.24
capoiera		210						0
food		800		250	250			300
home depot		25		25
gas		300		150	57			100
tooth		25						25
cricket		70		70	70
ATT		45			40			0
discover card				100				600	new due date of the 28 :)		still owe 400
savings				0				0
random				50	95	allowance		40
		4467		2283.8	2152.48			2319