drowning

I feel like we are drowning.

Talia is having major issues socially/emotionally at school. I mentioned ADHD to her teachers last week and suddenly she is the main problem in all the classrooms. I don't know if they just zoned in on her because there is a chance I could medicate her or what but I feel like it has gotten out of hand. we are trying to get a counselor for her…if we have the money… or if LDS services can help. I don't know what else to do.

Svend and I need to get out of my parents house. It's not happening fast enough. We can't get much money in the bank and while we are pretty sure we are going with Jackman, Ne is still in the air… so we aren't rushing to purchase a home.

I started a job delivering packages in the evenings a few weeks ago and quit tonight. It's not worth the $10 per hour.  Svend is stressed. I was stressed but enjoying the required hour out of the house by myself. But we just can't swing it with all the emotions in our house right now.

Svend has his boards retakes tomorrow night. He's stressed. I am praying he passes. He is stressed. He is stressed. I feel like I have taken away too much of his time these past few weeks with family things/kids issues/my job/etc.

Bergen's bike is still stolen. He told me I have until tomorrow to get him a new bike. Love him but WHAT? I have been praying but have given up hope. I just can't see it coming back.

We need to get out of here.  It's hard to have disagreements and have ears all around so you can't really work out the disagreements in the way you want to and you feel judged/etc.  I want to get my kids out of their school. I want to get Tally the help she needs and then start fresh.

I feel like we are drowning. The funny part is, when I spell drowning a little wrong, auto correct makes it "growing." I guess we are growing.  

We are being tried and stretched and it SUCKS! But it will be okay.  At least Svend and I take turns being grumpy and ticked. Tonight it's him.  I am reminded how he must feel when I am moody from the kids sucking all my energy away… I guess I'm glad for tonight… because I get to have some empathy for him I hadn't realized before…so the next time I am moody…I'll try to be more optimistic for both of us so he's not the only one carrying the load… and hopefully he'll do the same for me…and hopefully we won't feel like we're drowning…  but just growing.