catching up... random things

guns. I am not a fan of guns. I used to shoot them a lot growing up and was so excited that Christmas I finally got my OWN bb gun... but I AM against lawmakers taking away our RIGHT to keep and bear arms. This debate is frustrating me. The govt will have the power (if this goes through) to TAKE all guns away and use them on their own people

I am angry about the sexuality of our nation. It disgusts me.  Co-habitation, gay, bi-sexual... the boy scouts are being pressured to allow gay men to be leaders. leaders with INFLUENCE. This is no longer about how someone is born. It's about how our nation can CHANGE YOUNG people to believe they can be sexual all the time and it's okay.  This is so frustrating to me and I fear for our children. This just gets me to my very core. I don't even know how to explain my thoughts and fears on this. Children are growing up no knowing if they are male of female! And it's the PARENT's doing it now.  I understand the "i was born this way and I struggle..." but parents trying to be wonderful by letting their child CHOOSe their gender!? We were all male and female before the world came to be. We had that identity in the spirit world. Nothing changed with our bodies.  UGHHHH!!!!!

Today Brooklyn scared me. I put her in her crib for  nap and then went out to play in the snow with the kids. I came in a few times and heard her whine but that was it. After about 15 minutes straight I thought I should just go check really quick to make sure she had fallen asleep.  I heard her screaming. I decided I should just go get her and let her skip her nap. When I got up to her room, she was 1/ 2 in her crib and 1/2 on the TOP of Bergen's bunk bed..STUCK and straddling the headboard of her crib just holding on for dear life scared and tired.  I pulled her down and she needed a diaper change. She must have been crying for a while because she was asleep and crying while I changed her diaper then she fell asleep on me... and slept for another hour. POOR BABY! I am GRATEFUL I was prompted to go to her. SO GRATEFUL she was okay.  So, tonight, we took off the side of her crib and that's how she's sleeping. We'll see how long it takes her to fall out... I padded the floor for her atleast ;)

My head itches. I have bumps and stuff all over the right side of my scalp. It is VERY uncomfortable and I don't know what to do. It's just frustrating...painful and itchy ALL the time. Pregnancy hormones cause zits. bluh.

Oh, baby is great. Took all the kids with me (not by choice) to the OB and they all saw the baby...though it was a FAST ultra sound. So, they were all reassured the baby is okay. Bergen asked if we could name the baby Patrick if it's a boy. I'm not so sure. It's just not... different enough? I don't know. We'll see what we do. I have no idea what so ever it will be.  Hopefully we find out at the end of  March...that'd be nice. 14 weeks and counting :)

Tabitha is doing much better on the potty arena.  I started paying her in marshmellows if she pees without me prompting her or her screaming... and give her money is she poops the same way.  She's done really good for 3 days...we'll see if we can keep this up!

Things have calmed down with Talia.  She doesn't have any friends. I'm not exaggerating.  She tells me stories about how she tries to get friends...but then always ends them with "it's okay though, it's not so bad being by myself." I just don't know what to do. She has always been able to get friends and now it's just not happening. She went to activity girls for the first time last week and had fun. I am hoping those girls will be more accepting of her. We've gone to play group with them and they tell secrets and run away from her....so we stopped going. I just want to shield her from this. It hurts me so bad and I don't know how she handles it each day at school. I hate this.  She is a pretty resilient little girl, that's for sure, but I know how it is to just pretend you're okay all the time. I know what it's like to have "friends" who do things to embarrass you because they love that "you can take it" but it really hurts and sticks with you for a long time. prom. blue suit. yep. crap like that. It hurts. I don't want her to get hurt. I'm grateful I'm aware of this now though...so things are getting better between us. We talk when she gets home from school and she plays with her BFFs (Bergen and Tabitha). I'm glad they like eachother.

I think work is going better for Svend, though he's ready to be done or atleast get better surgeries... but oh well. We're grateful he has a residency! No outlook on where we'll end up...

I'm so tired. I don't really know why. I think it's just winter...and being with two little girls all day... I'ts hard to PLAY with toddlers all day... so I clean but then I burn out and I just want to sit and do nothing... and I do...nothing. I'm just tired all the time with no excuses.

the end. for now :)