So, last week Bergen came in sobbing and limping. He'd fallen out of that darn tree! He fell about 6 feet onto his back.
20 minutes later, Tally comes in sobbing. She's fallen off her bike again and is pretty banged up.
Spent 3 hours in the ER with Tabitha Monday night for resting strider croup. The bad kind that demands treatment. So, treatment and observation. Realized (again) that, as a mom, I cannot have a job. No way. No how.
Now today...
Left Brooklyn and Tabitha outside with Bergen for 3-5 minutes while I ran in and changed my clothes to go for a bike ride. BIG MISTAKE!
I came out and where is Brooklyn? Oh, she's just NEXT TO THE BUSY ROAD HANGING OUT WITH HER BALL IN THE BUS STOP SHELTER!!!!!!!!
I run with all speed yelling her name and praying as 2 HUGE trucks lumber by! OH MY GOSH! MY BABY! I kicked myself for leaving her with Bergen. He's 5. I could see the headline. Me in jail because I left my 5 year old to watch my baby. Idiot mom. Too many kids.
I think we are done. I can't do any more.
I know that's not true. But for now it is. I am just not cutting it as a mom right now. I just do stupid things like this and I love my kids so much, that I just don't know if I can watch and help any more. Maybe we'll have a bonus baby in a few years. I think that's where we're heading. Because right now, I love my kids and I need to be their mom.
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