Since I hate money so much...and it is seriously the root of most every problem in our lives--well, the LACK of money--I have had many reminders that I am loved and seen by my Father in Heaven. One reminder doesn't seem like that big of deal to most or may just seem like a coincidence...but I know it was truly a gift and blessing straight from my loving Father in Heaven because of obediance and faith.
With Sweets was about 3 months old we were really struggling financially. Since we "really struggle" about every 3 months, it was getting "old" and tiring. I don't know what sparked it, but I had things I HAD to purchase (diapers...kid's clothes...kid's shoes) and no money to do it. Well, I had some money...but not really enough. I don't remember where Hubby was, but I was home and I was crying.
I started praying and bawling and sobbing. I was sobbing sentences like "YES! We have so much 'stuff' that people/family have given us...but I want our NEEDS met!" And "WHY can't someone just buy me some diapers instead of a Wii???" I know crazy right? I was so mad. I was so frustrated that while many were so willing to give us the "pleasures" of life, our needs were neglected and we didn't have the money for them. I was so angry. I started asking why we weren't helped more. We were doing everything right. We were being obedient and trying out hardest...yet we were barely afloat.
Then, as usual, came the humbling part...where I started naming everything I truly was grateful for and my life began to look better. It was then time to take Baby Girl from school. I dried my tears. I knew I had to use the last of the money to buy diapers and nothing else. I was bummed but left.
I dropped her off and Bugs had decided to unbuckle his seatbelt. I had to stop in the parking lot to re-buckle him. I got out of my car and another car pulled up next to me. It was the mother of a little boy in Tally's class who had a baby 1 month older than Sweets.
She told me her daughter could no longer fit in a size of diaper and had about a pkg worth that would just go to waste. She asked if I wanted them...
My needs were met. She's not a member of my faith. She doesn't know why she was prompted to bring those diapers and have them in her car on that particular day. Our Heavenly Father does hear and answer prayers. To me that simple moment was a testimony that He is watching out for us. I'm grateful for that reminder.
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