Again

today I read Svend's text. One four letter word. He bought an r rated movie. Apparently it is suddenly okay if it is just be of killing. Bergen found the movie. Work is bad. Kate, the office manager is incompetent and the jackman's don't seem to care. We have 3 months til our contract is over. We were looking to buy. I really want to stay and it makes me sick to think of leaving but I can't do this and Svend's certainly can't. I am upset at God. I am upset that if we weren't meant to be in Texas, we could have at least been able to enjoy our little time here. I gave but Svend's has not which makes it hard for me to enjoy. I like my job. The kids have friends. I love having my parents close and so do the kids. I just wish things would actually work out for our good. Positive attitudes don't change the facts and I am getting tired of putting on a happy face and not feeling like its my fault we are even here.hope I can sleep.